empty kisses

I like that hooking up and empty kisses will not lead to a broken heart. No strings attached right. But no one will ever be content with just fleeting moments of pleasure. I want to stay. I want to be wanted. I want to belong.

I'm not asking for forever. I'm not asking for till death do us part. I'm just asking for indefinitely.

You and me indefinitely.

back

I'm back. It feels different. I feel different. Kind of like I don't belong here anymore. So much has happened here before I left. It's hard to plop myself back into the midst of it. But this is my life. This is how I lived it before I left. Why do I find it so hard to fit into my own life again?

I feel so alone.

almost

We... were almost there.
I... was almost loved.
You... chose to let go.

*image from here

towards new memories

I'm going back. You won't be there anymore. Not for me at least.
But I know it will be okay.
Because I'm okay now.


*Posts will be sporadic; I'll be away for a month. Cheers to the beginning of a new summer!*

fuck you

"Fuck you," you say to me in jest, as you gently elbowed me.
"You can't," I retort.
"True," you say, with a hint of sadness that reflected mine.

the moment of unspoken bliss

I remember catching that glint in your eyes the first time I wrapped my legs around your hips.

"It's been a while since...," your words trailed off into the haze of escalating sensual tension.

"I'm glad I waited," were the mutual thoughts in that moment of unspoken bliss.

mind-blowing

I went over to Temptation's place today. He was sitting on the couch, very laid back, and his body language was very inviting. All I wanted to do was to ride him. I'm such a slut. A slut that practices great restraint though.

However, I totally fucked him in my head. It was mind-blowing. :)


*I had a very sexy dream of him the night I wrote this. I still can picture every inch of him so vividly in my head.*

monday

It will all be over on Monday.

halfway across the world

Last summer, I flew halfway across the world. Only to have met you.
This summer, I will be flying halfway across the world, to the place where we once were.

It was amazing last summer.
This summer, halfway across the world, it won't be any different.
Without you.

I can't wait.

the smell of you

Your t-shirt has lost its smell of you.
I never will.